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Mansarovar Program Report
Abhyasi Name : Rama Krishna Tiruveedhula
Abhyasi Id: 2395 Practicing Since: April 2003
Trainer’s Name: Sri. Rajesh Raina
Dates: 18th January 2008 to 20 January 2008
Place: Nagaram, Near Bhadrachalam, Andhra Pradesh.
My humble pranams to the holy feet of our Revered
Master
I want to express my sincere gratitude to Revered
Sir for giving me this opportunity.
This is a report of my experiences during
Manasarovar program from 18th to 20th January at
Nagaram village near Bhadrachalam.
1stday
Date: 18/1/08
Got up after 4. Came to Mango garden after doing
morning meditation in prayer room in the house. Felt
very refreshing to be with the trees, birds, sky
etc. in the morning. Felt silence all around and
activity of trees, birds etc going on smoothly. Felt
they all express their true nature silently.
Question appeared before me , What is the real
purpose of my life ..?
Saw some people coolly working in fields. Felt that
what a difference between city and village. These
village people are more near to Nature. City people
are living noisy life not having peace and silence
in their life.
Felt some churning going on in head. Lot of thoughts
trying to go out. Thoughts about my mother, brother
, family and my native village gripped for longtime.
Thought that why don’t I remember Master as I
remember family members.
Felt lightness after afternoon meditation under
tree.
Felt why should I worry about temporary issues in
family but instead accept whatever comes and submit
to Master as we are all His children.
Went to see the nearby Kinnerasani river. A small
stream of water flowing with lot of sand around. All
streams travel to merge in ocean. Similarly, all
individual streams crave to merge into Master’s
consciousness. Felt that my direction and journey
should be towards Master like this stream.
Contemplated on commandment 4 and 5. Felt I created
a strong individual network as Master described and
I need to attach firmly to our Master to shatter
that and become pure. Felt fortunate to follow our
Master.
Felt restless. Random thoughts kept coming in the
evening, some are very old.
Came back to house after 6 pm and did cleaning after
taking bath. Lot of cleaning happened with countless
past thoughts going out as high speed of wind. Sat
there for more than 1 hr.
Slept happily after doing 9 pm prayer and prayer to
Master.
2nd Day
Got up after 4. Felt restless uneasy during first
half of meditation and lightness and centered during
rest of the time.
They arranged hot water, gave us hot milk and then
took us to the river bank carrying mats and chairs.
Felt that these people in village are very simple
and ready to serve others.
Waited for sunrise. Observed how silently the day
starts and activity revives in Nature as the
sunrises. Our Master is like that sun and giving
light to all of us. Meditated on the river bank but
felt restless inside. Tried to maintain silence.
Felt pinching pain with some activity in head.
Remembered Master’s words “What is self? It is gross
state produced by the charge of the mind” Felt the
urge to get rid of all my grossness.
Thoughts about family especially problems of my
mother kept repeatedly coming. Felt restless in
chest region.
After 3 PM felt very calm and lighter inside. Felt
that I am part of Nature. Thoughts about our system
, goal, Master and universal consciousness etc came.
Felt that all other relationships are temporary
compared to our Master. Went back home after 6
happily.
After completing purification, sat silently in
prayer in the verandah of the house. Felt grace of
the Master drenching me. Felt grateful to Master for
everything. Felt lot of repentance for forming lot
of individual network. Repented for undue attachment
with family, brooding on everything, tendency to
belittle others (in thoughts), seeking self
importance. Begged forgiveness.
3rd Day
Felt uneasy inside but not many thoughts during
morning meditation. Went to river bank and meditated
there before sunrise. Felt calm and absorbed for
sometime.
This morning also some family thoughts came now and
then. Felt that I am feeling burden taking too much
responsibility for others problems due to undue
attachment. This is my immediate bottleneck that is
to get be eliminated. Contemplated about trusteeship
for sometime. Felt restless till noon. Slept for
sometime after noon meditation. Felt some vague
scenes, thoughts going out during that nap.
Felt de-tensioning after 3 PM and thoughts about
Master came. Felt He is like Buddha , who changed
lives of people and the need to yield more and more
to Him forgetting my petty wishes accepting whatever
comes. Felt trusteeship is great virtue as it is
reality. Thoughts related to 4th commandment and
need to be plain and simple. Some thoughts came
about my habits of brooding and my hesitation to
speak frankly. Thought that brooding is nothing but
the habit of mind which takes something as an issue
and treats its as a puzzle seeing things in
magnified lens going round and round the same issue
but not really solving anything and I get trapped by
this mind many times. In reality, many times there
is no issue to worry about but just a negative play
of mind. Thought that I fear to talk plainly because
of some childhood fears. Remembered Master’s words
to ignore all thoughts and remember Him. I want to
imbibe this practice sincerely.
Felt that 3rd day passed just like that and wanted
to continue to sit there even after dark for more
time.
This night I could not sleep properly as some vague
thoughts and dream like scenes kept haunting for
sometime having fearful content. Remembered Master
and maintained calm.
Conclusion :
Felt that our real is nature is to be silent and
also work in silence but spoiled that due our
wishes, undue attachments, imaginations and wrong
habits of mind. Felt also that during past 5 years,
developed some inner calmness compared to the
chaotic condition before joining the system. Felt
fortunate. Felt that purpose of trip is to learn to
be silent from Nature gaining more practical
experience of commandments 4, 5 and I think that
this program really helped me.
Felt happy for all the arrangements of food and
stay. I express my gratitude to Imperience and
brother Rama Rao Garu for all the planning and
arrangements during this training.
Namasthe
Rama Krishna Tiruveedhula
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