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Jayachandra Rao
Abhyasi ID: 84
Started to Narsingapuram to attend to Manasarovar
program at 1:30 PM at Chennai. Reached Tirupati by
4:00 PM.
Attended Satsang between 6:30 PM to 7:00 PM at
Tirupati. Had lot of discontinuous thoughts during
Meditation. Felt light and absorbed during later
part of Meditation.
Reached Narsingapuram by 8:00 PM, reached
Manasarovar venue after dinner by 8:45 PM. Performed
9 PM prayer and retired to bed after bed time
Prayer.
10th October 2008
Had lot of dreams like thoughts throughout sleep.
Woke up at 3:30 AM.
Sat for Meditation between 4:15 AM to 5:30 AM. Felt
absorbed during Meditation. It was completely
different feeling to Meditate in Open air. Felt
Happy after Meditation.
Slept between 6:30 AM to 7:30 AM. Sleep was mostly
filled with dreams and do not remember the content
of dreams.
Had food several times during the day, but was
eating less and was satisfied.
Rush of thoughts were there during day but inwardly
feeling contentment and happiness.
Sat for Meditation between 12 noon and 12:30 PM. Had
lot of thoughts during meditation. Was not able to
recall thoughts.
Had slept between 1 PM to 3 PM. Had lot of dreams
during sleep. Do not remember the content of dreams.
Felt happy to be in tune with nature. Felt the need
to train kids (Especially in cities) about nature
and our coexistence with Nature.
Felt the need to be natural and not mind what others
think of me.
Sat for Cleaning between 4:35 PM to 5:10 PM. Felt
cleaning was relatively lighter in comparison with
normal days.
Sat for Meditation between 6:15 PM to 7:00 PM. Felt
absorbed during meditation. Thoughts were there but
do not remember them after Mediation.
Sat for Bed time prayer between 8:05 PM to 8:50 PM
after Point A meditation. Felt oriented to Pujya
Sir.
Felt light throughout evening and retired to bed
after 9:00 PM Prayer.
11th October 2008
Had lot of dreamy like thoughts during sleep. But
observed that I was not feeling tired and got up at
3:30 AM.
Sat for Meditation between 4:00 AM to 5:30 AM. Had
lot of thoughts during Meditation. Content of
thoughts were related to work and home. Felt
dependency on Master. Felt absorbed during later
part of Meditation.
Had a deep sleep between 6:30 AM to 9:30 AM. Sleep
was completely filled with dreams. Had lot of
dreams, some dreams were bestial in nature.
Did prayer between 10 AM to 10:20 AM. Continued
sleep till 11 AM.
Felt lighter compared to yesterday. Thoughts during
other times are related to office, home and some
sensuous drives.
Felt that we can be happy only if we are in tune
with nature according to commandment 4.
Sat for meditation between 12 noon to 12:27 PM. Had
lot of discontinuous thoughts during meditation.
Content of thoughts were related to House
construction, Movies etc. Felt light after
meditation. Felt orientation towards Master during
meditation.
Felt that nature does its duty with out expecting
any return or recognition. Felt the need to imbibe
same qualities in life towards duties and Sadhana.
Had thoughts related to my father. Felt like seeing
my parents.
I was getting attracted to songs played outside.
Observed that with lot of difficulty we get food and
we squander. Felt that we should not waste food.
Slept between 1 PM to 3 PM. Had lot of dreams and
some are bestial in nature. Had deep sleep with
dreams.
Sat for Meditation between 6:15 PM to 7 PM after
cleaning. Had lot of discomfort due to stomach ache.
Resolved to sit for meditation and continued
meditation. Felt light and calm after meditation.
Sat for Bed time prayer between 8:00 PM to 8:20 PM
after Point A meditation. Felt like resting for some
time and do 9 PM prayer. But slept.
12th October 2008
Dreamy like thoughts continued during sleep. There
was rain in midnight and we changed our beds to in
side roof. Got up at 3:30 AM.
Sat for Meditation between 4:40 AM to 5:40 AM. Had
lot of discontinuous thoughts. Some were related to
sensuousness. Felt disturbed by thoughts and Felt
that Master knows what is best for me. Physical
discomfort was there.
During meditation one Frog entered into my asan.
Felt fear. This continued throughout day and was
sitting only at high places.
Sat for Satsang between 8:00 AM to 8:55 AM. Felt
absorbed during meditation and felt sensation above
back side of head.
Enjoyed freedom to Meditate, eat and sleep during
program. Divine related thoughts are related to
cooperation and coexistence. Non divine related
thoughts were mostly related to office and sensuous
drives.
Sat for meditation between 12 Noon. Feeling of
lightness was there throughout meditation. Thoughts
were present related to office work, conflicts at
home etc.
12:30 to 12:40 PM prayed for forgiveness. Feeling of
repentance was there and felt that Master is the
only forgiver for me.
Slept between 1:00 PM to 2:15 PM. Had lot of dreams
related to work. Had a bestial dream, which made me
to wake up. Felt guilty and embarrassed. Prayed to
Master. Pleaded Master to forgive me for all bestial
activities I indulged.
Sat for cleaning between 5:30 PM to 6 PM.
Sat for meditation between 6:15 PM to 7:00 PM. Felt
like meditation completed 10 or 15 minutes before
and continued meditation till 7 PM.
Retired to bed at 8 PM after point A meditation and
bed time prayer. Woke up at 9:00 PM, did 9 PM prayer
for 10 minutes and slept. Observed that although I
was not in deep sleep did not get up and do 9 PM
prayer due to lethargy.
13th October 2008
Woke up at 3:30 PM.
Sat for meditation between 4:15 AM and 5:15 AM. Was
aware of thoughts during meditation. Felt subtle
throughout meditation. Has a thought that cock
shouting is reminding every body to get up and sit
for meditation. Felt light after meditation.
Returned to Brother Rajasekhar Reddy garu house and
back to Chennai. Felt happy and contended throughout
return journey.
Overall during all three days contentment and
happiness prevailed. Felt need to increased priority
to Sadhana and reducing unnecessary activities. Felt
need for co-existence with nature and felt need to
be plain and simple to be Identical with nature as
ordained by Master in commandment 4.
I would like to Thank Pujya Sir, Imperience in
providing me opportunity to attend Manasarovar
program. I would like to thank Brother Rajasekhar
Reddy garu and Smt. Bhargavi garu for providing such
a wonderful facility, natural food and for their
love and affection during our stay.
With heartful pranams,
Chandu
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