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Abhyasi Name: Sri. R.
Sharath
Abhyasi ID: 739
Summary:
• We arrived at the venue the night before the
program was scheduled to commence i.e., Sep 28th and
were given instructions related to the program. All
the arrangements were very nicely made and were very
convenient. I was a bit tense as to whether I will
be able to maintain complete silence for three days
as it is something I have never done before. Even
before the program started, I started to think when
the third day will get over and when they will say
the program will conclude.
• On the first day, the program commenced early in
the morning with Morning Meditation. This was my
first experience meditating under a tree in a
natural surroundings and it was unique. The natural
environment was very pleasant and only the sounds of
birds and insects and gushing winds were heard. I
was a bit nervous about snakes in the beginning, but
got over that fear immediately. I felt deep silence
within. Feelings of Reverence and Devotion to Master
were present. There was no awareness of any thoughts
and immense peace and calmness was predominant.
There was a feeling of being in tune with nature.
• Apart from adhering the regular meditational
practices, I meditated at 12:00 to 12:30 and evening
6:30 to 7:00 PM on all three days. After the noon
meditation, I was maintaining Silence for half hour
before going to lunch. I also undertook an Inner
Balance test once in the morning and once in the
evening. At other times, I tried as much as I can to
remain in Silence. Took short naps in the afternoon.
• The experiences during meditation were profound.
There was a depth and a vastness in Silence.
Predominant feelings were Nothingness, Void, looking
at grey colour. Thoughts of Rev. Master and Rev. Sir
were present.
• On the first day morning, I did not have any
thoughts for a while and I got worried. Since we
were told we cannot take any sittings, I became
restless and I was walking here and there and still
not getting any thoughts. Then I just suggested to
myself to remain calm. During the afternoon I was
sitting quietly trying to remain in Silence and I
was amazed that I was able to actually be in
Silence. Thoughts about goal and feelings of
dependence on Master were there.
• During noon meditations, felt a mild heat at
sometimes. Felt a strong will. Feeling of being
embraced by Nature and Kindness of Master was felt
during one occasion.
• Evening cleaning sessions was very effective. Felt
extremely light.
Imperiences:
• Thoughts were very simple without any weighty
effect. Feelings of simplicity and plainness were
there. I got reminded of Master's statement that we
use cranes to lift needles. There was a strong
feeling that all the problems that one faces is
mostly one's own creation and one gets into to
trouble often only due to one's own indisciplined
mind.
• The environment was marked by purity. Felt that
the current day pollution in environment is only
because of the unregulated minds. Felt that I have
to respect Nature and keep the surroundings pure and
clean. Feelings of Reverence and submissive attitude
to Nature were there.
• Change in food did not have any impact. Felt very
comfortable and was able to get up in the morning
very easily. Feeling motivated to change my food
habits.
• Lightness and feelings of Divine presence inside
was predominantly felt. Feelings of wonder were
there. Felt that life is meaningful only if spent
for God.
• After looking at the natural surroundings, the
purity and lightness, clear and vast skies, felt
very insignificant. Awareness of the Almighty and my
own puny stature was there.
• Felt that I cannot find any faults against anyone.
Many times, I could not express clearly my true
intentions and make the other person understand what
I really mean. I felt that this must be the case
with all and therefore I cannot really find defects
with others.
• There was a feeling that Silence is the best form
of expression and am feeling motivated to be in
Silence. I am also feeling at ease to remain silent
after attending this program.
• Felt suddenly cut off from the whole world and
sitting face to face with God. Thoughts of my family
were there but suddenly felt that relationship with
God is the only relationship and feelings of longing
was there.
• After being able to remain long hours in Silence I
felt very happy and confidant. Realized the power of
Will and felt that if I can do this, then I can
attain the Goal, however humungous a task it may
seem like.
Overall, it was a very humbling experience. I felt
very cleansed and very light and dynamic after
spending the three days. Felt that the inner flame
has been brightened by Master and will surely
strengthen my Sadhana. There was immense joy but I
felt sad that I had to leave from there so soon. At
least two more days would have been surely great. I
am extremely grateful to the Institute for this
opportunity and I am eagerly looking forward for
such opportunities in future.
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